ItS MeEeEe!

Well…

Its midweek! Can you believe it? So fast… So fast… stupid. ¼ of the year has just disappeared… Vanished… -looks around-

Still feeling down… duno y… juz dun feel happy, that’s all… maybe coz of tt thing?

For not the person I like, but the thing I luv… doing or going to… yeah.

Westlife - Obvious

We started as friends
But something happened inside me
Now I'm reading into everything
But there's no sign you really like me, baby

You don't ever notice when I’m turning on my charm
Or wonder why I'm always where you are

I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song

I've heard you talk about
How you want someone just like me
Every time I ask you out
We never move pass friendly, no no

You don't ever notice how I stare when we're alone
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone

I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
Yeah...

You are my very first thought in the morning
And my last at nightfall
You are the love that came without warning
I need you, I want you to know

I've made it obvious
So finally I'll sing it
(I've crushed on you so long)
I'm not so good with words
Since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song

The love song I’m sing it until the day you're holding me
I've wanted you so long but on and on you get me wrong
I more than adore you but since you never seem to see

Since you never seem to see
I'll say it in this love song…


Yeah… no one knows…
At least, I dun think so…

Sighs-

31/3/2004

~~~~~~~~Tuesday~~~~~~~~~~~

Sigh…

I’M NOT CHOSEN FOR THE SYF-CECT LORZ! (Singapore Youth Festival Choral Excellence Concert Thingy)

There wasn’t even an audition lor!

Nvm… shall try harder… prove to them I’m not that “useless”

Nelly Furtado - Try

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn
The more I learn
The more I cry
The more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
that's you, baby
This is me, baby
we are, we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love…

30/3/2004

Hahaz

That was yesterday's post!

Today arh... slpt at duno wad time last night

OMG SO DAMN HAPPY

NVA BEEN SOOOOO HAPPY IN WEEKS

IVE GOTTEN THE SONGS I WANT!!

SOOOOOO HAPPY

ITS HEAVEN

NEVER FELT SOOOOOO ALIVE BEFORE

G-NIA

Hmph.

EVIL pple out there...

Dun like you. hmph. >.<

[Tamino]
At last I see you face to face
Your beauty as beyond compare
[Pamina]
Tamino, my hero
[Tamino]
Come let's flee this place and I
Will protect you from morn till night
[Pamina]
Yes, you will protect me
With your magic charm
[Tamino]
Pamina
[Pamina]
Tamino
[Together]
So happy and so free
My love and dream

Darn sweet right? hehz

Enjoy!

G-nia

Haiz...

SO TIRED!!! aching all over also.. shoulders, arms *winkz at perlyn*, head, legs...

stupid jasmine teo whacked me all over. hmph. -clutches jasmine teo's arm- >.<

n dumb "xiao de" keeps walking around, spying, looking, talking... EVERY SINGLE FEATURE OF HER IS SOOOOOO IRRITATING I JUZ WANNA GO IN FRONT N SLAP TT SILLY FACE OF HERS... i just duno wad stops me frm doing it.

Mmm... Solitaire is also a depressing song you know? Mmm...

The sky is now wad i am feeling... cloudy-troubled... gona rain-exploding soon... Why not raining-holding back everything...

G-nia

Stupid stupid stupid.

the day just sucked, ok?

only choir was fine.

G-nia

Haiz...

stupid tyz... sprouting german... hahaha... so bishhhy... >.<

Attempting to write a song... but im STUCK

Time
Free but ever flowing in this world of mine
Never stopping even when times were fine
Flying away whenever life gives us a chime

Life
Throwing us lemons every day and night
Making us live our lives in utmost fright
Can’t even live without hurting our pride

Our world
Discrimination between the rich and poor
Boys looking down upon the girls
Shadows cast over those unloved

Mmmm... they rhyme dont they? But i duno how to continue...

Anyone with tips tell me kayz!

Thankz (:

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2mr Gen n Chai singing for morning assembly! Smile kayz both of u... dun be so nervous..

Kinda happy; 2 projects done 2dae! Though we crapped both, but ok lah (:

-Choir Tomorrow!-

G-nia

DAMMIT ANGRY NOW.

Hmm...

Tchr 2 says I look tired.. do I? But i DO feel tired...

Magic flute quite fun actually.. hehz..

Yea... very pissed now... loads of reasons...

G-nia

Hiz..

Sch reopening 2mr for nearly all Singaporean students… Sad ain’t it. I don’t exactly look forward to it… do you? Shall briefly shorten some things I wanna say…

Magic flute concert, the songs sound quite lame now >.< its better for those kiddies to sing u get me? Like last time P2 that time u wun feel embarrassed singing such songs but now its like… yeah… Well, hope kel dear can come n join us for the concert… Let the grd 6 galz clz rock on… “The Charming Flute” ‘s wad our grp’s doing… Nice song I muz say…

Choir concert and competition: Carnival of animals! Another concert me n cam n kel have done b4, but cam n I r doing it again, coz this yr nanyang n st nick choir combining… I think we did carnival of animals when we were p4 right cam? Yeah… but this time I think its gona be diff… tt time we played instruments n sang… this time we’re singing… mm… interesting >.< Competition wise… the songs are completed, but not ready yet, yeah esp the “cai mo gu” song… hahaha really darn confusing the coming in parts… Butterfly also, the high part sounds horrid so… of coz need some polishing… Dynamic wise need loads of practice so sngs choir work harder n keep up the gd work!

IPW: Nearly done but the board needs some touching up and some other stuff lah!

Yeah… a new term’s starting… may the sun shine on all of u!

G-nia

Haiz..

HOLIDAYS ARE GONE!!! THE NIGHTMARE IS COMING!!!

again. yesh... sch reopening... life is gona standstill for another long moment and restart in another 3 months. How.. fun.

So excited... juz remembered tt I haven’t do the home econs proj! Die liao lah.. due on wed… wad 2 do?

Well, wadeva. Dun care liao. Its only sch, no great deal. Whu cares…

Need to be at Fairfield 2mr morning for choir workshop. So leaving home at 7.20 or so. Bishh… then got clzhr after theory... sure die one lahz.. wad crap we hafta play? Well aniwaez...

Shall leave home early, get home late. wadeva. C tt’s y I say the holz have ended…

G-nia

Heyz…

Went to rebekah’s house n choir 2dae!

Yeah… Mom taking Gen as example.. read wad chinese crap. Wadeva. Blasting music… simple plan summore.. damn meaningful.. u know? MEANINGFUL

Yeah.. choir was alright… finally a satisfying session…

Im feeling not at all sorry for HER. After all she did to US. Who cares. HUO GAI. Peeping spying fool.

Yeah… life’s so empty… but its much betta than studying like siao. At least I can practice what I want.

>.< if u get wad i mean larz >.< if u really wanna know ask! maybe i'll disclose >.<

G-nia

Heyz..

Choir 2mr! Hope everything goes well... yeahhhhh

Heh did some tyco shots while playing gb wif jon juz now :P

Well! Song for 2dae! Everytime by A1

Everytime i kiss i feel your lips
Everytime i cry i c u smile
Everytime i close my eyes i realise tt
Everytime i hold your hand in mine
The sweetest thing my heart can ever find
Since the day
I gave your luv away..

Nice rightz.. even yz agrees! :X :P

hahaha

cyaz everyone!~
G-nia

Finally!

Finished the 3 books of Dave Peltzer... Darn darn nice kayz... Pple out there muz go n read..

Piano lesson later.. wonder how i will die? Its only an hour away until i leave for lessons...

Today has passed emptyly so far...

G-nia

Yeah..

got the ipw and english lit proj items already... $2.40 and $1.50 respectively...

Yeshh so qian4 qian2 huan2 qian2.. hahaz..

so smile dearies the holidays has just begun!

G-nia

Yeah...

Feeling really sad... Dun leaveeeeeee...

~For Kelly Lua Jie Ying and Camilia Koh Si Hui, this song is for both of you

It never came into my mind
Our friendship would be shattered through time
I thought we would bind
The three of us no one had divided
Never noticed the seeds that we planted
Tangling and supporting on each other
Trust, love, friendship were showered
I’m sorry

I’ve taken this friendship for granted
Never noticed the love between us
The path that we had gone through together
Just slipped through our fingers; gone
I’m sorry

The happy times
Nothing was wrong everything was fine
We gossiped and confided
Our friendship was strong
After every single taunt
But now it’s gone
I’m sorry

I’ve taken this friendship for granted
Never noticed the love between us
The path that we had gone through together
Just slipped through our fingers; gone
I’m sorry

The laughter the joy
The happiness and sorrow
Gone in a flash
Never coming back
The tears flowing down
In sorrow we drown
The tendrils we were bound
Broke and they’re gone
Never to be found again
I’m sorry

I’ve taken this friendship for granted
Never noticed the love between us
The path that we had gone through together
Just slipped through our fingers; gone
Hope the memories will stay
The profound emotions we had
Will stay intact
I’m sorry I’ve taken this friendship for granted


Hope we'll still be 2gether... luvv ya loads kel n cam...
G-nia

Backk...

Been thinking about the past... da -trio of "terror"- 's fantastic memories, yeah..

Hey kel.. rmbr é magic flute concert? u were wearin a short puffing out dress, so cute.. between me n cam.. hehz, tt clzhr tch2 showed the video i realised how far we came.. everything... the copying, combining, p6 when we 3 got 96 96 n 96 for grd 5 theory.. Its just the childhood memories… slipping away like sand thru fingers… Piano when we combined n covered for each other... tt duet we played for the most recent concert... it juz seems like yesterday when we first met during theory lessons wif teacher alice?

Juz wanna let u know i had had a great time wif u n cam... hanging out 2gether during piano... everything we've had 2gether... yeah... so pray u stay on till u finish grd 8... n have the last concert 2gether...

Hope we'll stay in touch, i'll nva 4get u n cam..-é trio of "terror"- LUV YA KELLY JIE!!

~Coz there's a star in the sky tt's shining for us three

G-nia

Hi...

Duno y... i feel like im gona scream at someone

Yes, esp pple in my house. Im dedicatin the lyrics One Day frm simple plan to mom.

N yeah... everyday's the worst day eva..

And I feel like
I'm living the worst day
Over and over again
And I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like
I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone
And every day is the worst day ever

Yesterday was the worst day ever
And tomorrow won't be better
It's history repeating (on and on)
Summer plans are gone forever
I traded them in for dishpan water
And every day is never ending...

Yes tt's wad i feel... Life just sux.

G-nia

heyz..

holz here!.. project time...

yeah... THE SIMPLE PLAN ALBUM ROCKS OK! yeah yeah yeah

One Day - Simple Plan

Somtimes this house feels like a prison
That I just can't leave behind
There's so many rules
I got to follow
'Cuz you can't let go

I don't wanna hear it
And I j-j-just can't believe it
All the stupid things you say but

[Chorus]
One day
I won't take this anymore
One day
I'll be old enough
To do, to do, to do what i want to
I won't have to run away
And you won't be there to say I'm not allowed to
One day

Sometimes I wonder if you know me
Or if you just pretend to care
Tell me are you on a mission to bring me down?

I dont wanna hear it
And i just cant believe it
All the stupid things u say
But one day
[Chorus]

Go away
Don't look at me
Cuz we're not the same
And you can't do nothing
You can say
That it's not okay
But I'm not afraid
And you can't do nothing
One day

[Chorus]

Yeah... some things r really true... to me lahz
hope the holz will be alright!

G-nia

Heyz...

Yeahh... omgosh so scary! it was like cannot hear myself?... Coz holding the microphone then the sound comes out frm the speakers? So cannot hear... Then i tot it was like outta tune?... yeah... but its over lah! Kinda great experience? Or exposure lahz.. Yeah... got some compliments lahz, so i dont think it was tt bad larz (: Yeah... but felt a bit depressed after tt leh... kinda went bonkers and... yeah... like wanted silence and peace lahz... so sorry chaiyue...

O yeah... the CHS sec 3s so enthu! yeah... lolz... yeah even cheered for st nicks lahz! Yeah...

Dun wanna talk about stupid tests... stupid.

Choir 2dae arh.. Ms lim came... gave us voice lessons lar... and... yeah tt's all!

basically u shld be enthu, smile, n have confidence lah!
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

Holz r coming, choir trip coming, maybe choir camp coming, piano concert coming... yeah wadeva
G-nia

Hi.
I have the feeling someone unallowed is looking at my blog. Well, wadeva. U know? Who cares. All I wanna say is life sux n I juz cant wait till this yr comes to an end. Shall blog again 2mr

G-nia

Haiz...

stupid tyz again lah! 30.5/40! stupid gal. (: Erm.. yeah.. bio test lahz.. ErMz... not very gd la... haiz Hope 2dae's maths test will be betta... *i HOPE*

yeah... choir was perfectly alright 2dae larz! ~HoPe Ms LiM CoMeS BaCk On ThUrSdAy...

Still very worried lah... haizzz

~rain rain come today, come along everyday, 2dae 2mr everyday, rain rain dont go away, pls come along everyday...

G-nia

I think I’m getting depressed so easily cause I worry about the next day every night… worry about practically everything… But I juz cant help it… Life is getting more n more horrid… I juz cant help not thinking about it… -sobs-

G-nia

Hi...

Sigh... stupid! :'(

Chaiyue sponsored me n Siew ying to sing DUET on thur's musicaton... *gives chaiyue the glowering stare* Nva even practice... dont even know wad to sing... -sighs worriedly-

Stupid history test. i BET im lowest in class... stupid yz, get so high for wad? idiot. haiz...

2mr maths test... nva study lah... sure fail one... wad trigonometry crap... like I wanna be mathematician liddat... then still got home econs crap... due wed then did nothing... sure die one lahz..

See... i told you this week's gona be horrid... "she" just walked out on us again today... very liddat lah... but not my fault wad... i was listening lor...

Then the stupid rain n wind... so stupid... so cold; so slpy... then wad crap... how to listen... aiyoh..

Piano leh? Practically alright lahz... besides something wrong wif the rhythm as usual... Some crap with my fingers lah...

Yeah basically tt's all... Still got some horrible things following up EACH DAY from tues.... test n some speech thingy for english enrichment.. i dont even know wad to say lor.. aiyah 2mr then crap lah. Then wed got tt home econs thing due... Thurs got tt P.E presentation... *P.E also have stress one; wad the* Yeah.. n the tension if we pass the "test"... AND CHAIYUE'S SPONSORING! -sobs-

Blearghs i juz wish i can fall sick right away... even if it takes my freedom, everything...
G-nia

Yeah… feeling rather depressed… the song lah… but its real nice : She believes in me by Ronan Keating… nice song...

While she lays sleeping
I stay out late at night and play my songs
And sometimes all the nights can be so long
And it's good when I finally make it home
All alone

While she lays dreaming
I touch her face across the silver light
I see her dreams that drift up to the sky
And she wakes up to my kiss
And I say it's alright
And I hold her tight

And she believes in me
I'll never know what just what she sees in me
I told her someday
If she was my girl,
I could change the world
With my songs,
But I was wrong.

But she has faith in me
And so I go on trying faithfully
Forever in my heart she will remain
And I hope and pray,
I will find a way, find a way

While she lays waiting
I ask myself why do I hurt her so
What calls me on along this lonely road
Why don't I turn around and head back home
Where I belong

While she lays crying
For she knows how my heart is ripped in two
I'm torn between the things that I should do
She deserves it all and I'd give it if I could
God, her love is true.

And she believes in me
I'll never know what just what she sees in me
I told her someday
If she was my girl,
I could change the world
With my songs,
But I was wrong.

But she has faith in me
And so I go on trying faithfully
Forever in my heart she will remain
And I hope and pray,
I will find a way, find a way

While she lays sleeping
While she lays sleeping for me

nice right?... depressing..

Yupz… worn out n depressed…
G-nia

Hi...

Very tired, think I'm falling sick...

Wanna thank jon... thankz for listening n giving tips just now... -smiles- Again nxt week? (:

Life's gonna be terrible this week... my 6th sense told me so

yeah... signing off for now..
G-nia

Heyz…
Nva blog for a few days already… Shall summarize everything! Thurs n Fri nothing much… Shall blog about todae!

Choir pract in the morning… Hrm.. Slacked quite a lot lah.. not very organized too… not many pple came, but it did help lah! But erm… yeah… drank cold water then cannot sing the high notes… quite embarrassing, but yeah like I said, not a lot of pple lah… so I wasn’t blamed that much (:

Well, getting “inspected” 2mr! (: Hahahaz… Hope it’ll go alright, won’t make a fool of myself? (: And… hope it’ll be enriching (: Successful too! ;)

Gonna slp soon… no sign of my “student” today? -smilez-

Feeling tired, aching limbs and hopeless yet hopeful,
G-nia

Hi pple...

Blearghs... Sci grp... *complains a string of words* Can you believe it? Out of *another long string of words*... Stupid stupid stupid. Ask me, maybe i'll tell you the details. *But how can u leave me out like that!!! SO EVIL LOR!!!* Dont wanna tok about ipw now. SO ANGRY. Maybe 2mr.

Well, chai yue me n siew ying practiced a bit after sch... but no piano so we kinda sounded horrible? (: Ahaha, but real practice's on Sat lah.. but a lot of pple not coming?? Sigh... dont you feel the sec 2 spirit is... falling? :Aniwaez, researching on "OREO" cookies... HOME ECONS wad... Due nxt week... Just started TODAY. so fun. I am like so amused. 3 weeks passed doing nothing? Ahem.

O yesh. Now i have 5 painful, itchy poison bites on my arms, neck, face... owch. So red, so hot, so big, stupid insects. Though i wonder how they got on my neck right... Funny..

Well, a bit of gd news.. 67.5 for chinese! i passed my "B4" line! lol. Fine fine! i shld be feeling remorseful. Class average was 77.6... -guilty- Bio test was alright too...

Now. hahaha. My *wadeva words u wanna put in* "student" had done "WELL" in his section A. Erm. Will get to know Section b later. I'll tell u pple total marks asap (: ~c how "wunnerful" my student is. :D (:

Duno lah, kinda get angry easily nowadays since this yr... duno y... O well! Gonna continue researching on OREO cookies. Maybe practicing My Immortal for this Sunday's "inspection"? Whahahahaz... -grinz-

~ Feeling much better now... smile dearies!
G-nia

Very very angry now. Also having mixed feelings. Don't want to blog about today.

gnia

HeYz..

Chinese test went surprisingly alright! (: Ahaha… even though I spent the whole of recess practicing with chai yue? Haha… maybe bio test 2mr will not be that bad? But out of the 5 chapters I only know one properly? Osmosis, n diffusion lah, if ur wondering… Maybe a bit of digestion and transportation? Like the vascular bundle thingy? hahaz..Then DNA is joined by two helix right? Yar something liddat (:

Haha, rather unprepared right? Fine fine... Hey wc! how was ur english test 2dae? (: Ahaha... Remember arh! :P

Well, had my first... practice with chai yue as mentioned above (: Well, practically no one heard us besides the whole of sec 2 Justice? (: We were practicing at the balcony u c! Hahaz got damn sharp lah! :P Erm, will try n improve lahz! -smilez- Maybe with jon's help also lah! he's SL... :D (:

Hmmzzz! Ann Teo's bdae coming liaoz! Around one more month only! Wahh the yr pass so fast! haiz... pass slower leh! though june's gonna be fun, its gonna be darn darn hectic also! Crammed with 2 unsure workshops, 2 concerts, 1 competition, Lots and lots of practices, *not to forget about all the hw* Argh!

Wanna qn my 'student' now... he has finally came online! (:

~Gets ready for another day
G-nia