DARN IT!!! ): this is one of the times when i wish that i am like better at html codes or something i CANT PUT WORDS AT THAT thing? at the BOTTOM ): and i cant attach a song. at least, i have the code, but for some weird reason, it isnt WORKING! and i am totally ): hais. never mind i shall go have another shot at it.gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 3:55 PM
hoho. nearly lost my phone! it must have dropped when i got off the car.. then two hours after i got home then i realised that it wasn't there. it was like, lying on the ground beside the car in the pouch. at least no one took it, or at least, no one realised that it was a phone there x) rocks and though my phone pouch is totally drenched, my phone is still in working order (: thank god!i guess i dont really have much to say about today's practice lah.. but at least can hear the very vast difference between the start and the end of choir. at least it shows that we're capable of being good.. and that we can make it if we want to. well, even though we're better, but what i want to say is that we need to be consistent.. and regardless of who's standing in front , we still must try our best, right? not just try only when ms lim gets angry and reverting back to normal when ms lim's not that angry anymore. it's just not how things work alright. and it's kinda disheartening for ms melody i guess, comparing what we gave ms lim and what we gave her at the start and at the end right.. when ms lim stepped out of the room, i look around and see half the sec one mouths all half closed. seriouly, i don't know how you people can sing like that; i tried and no sound came out. and it's not like those sort where you open the back and make the sound come from the top; i do not know how to put it; but you can see that there's no effort made lah. anyway, i just hope that we continue to give our best!happy birthday mok! heh love you loads and miss you too! -hugs-gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 3:45 PM
sometimes, we just get really caught up in whatever that we are doing.. then we get distant from god and stuff? today was reading a walk to remember on the way to church but couldnt finish it.. then read it on the way back. maybe it's god's plan, to put these things together, to remind us to have faith in him? today's sermon was on how to live a meaningful life; instead of just living in vain. like, everyone can serve a purpose in god's plans, no matter how insignificant you think you are or something. you just have to have faith in god, and even though you don't know what you will go through or what will happen after this, you just need to have faith that this is all planned by god, and you just need to put everything in his hands. "complete surrender" , as Eric Liddell puts it. then we ended off with this song:
十字架上的光芒
温柔又慈祥
带着主爱的力量
向着我照亮
我的心不再隐藏
完全的摆上
愿主爱来浇灌我
在爱中得自由释放
我愿意降服
我愿意降服
在你爱的怀抱中
我愿意降服
你是我的主
你是我的主
永远在你怀抱中
你是我，你是我的主
after we left church i continued reading "a walk to remember" by nicholas sparks. it was really really heart wrenching, and i really really like, felt that it was god who made two people who were totally different come together, and in the end marry each other. and it's through their relationship how landon became closer to god and became a better person. through jamie's illness, the people around her realised how they had taken her for granted, mocked her behind her back and stuff.. even though she was really sweet and stuff.. and as jamie puts it; it's all the lord's plan. it was really sad lah, i was tearing a lot while i was reading
it just makes me think about the sermon this morning and made me wonder about everything that i'm going through now.. maybe all these, we should just lift it up to god, pray to him and have faith that eventually things will turn out for the best.. and everything's in god's plans.
gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 2:05 PM
omg. my feet are KILLING ME! and im tired like ): godd. but it was kinda fun lah i guess, in a way haha. very cool hoho. i just never knew that people wipe those choco bars on the shelves - our first job today quite tedious after awhile hoho soon you'll naturally just wipe what you see instead of removing every single choc bar on the shelf then arranging it back in order and arranging it by putting the expiring ones (expire nxt year lah) in front so the people will take cause they just take the topmost, lol. then we looked around at all the chocs in the shop from chocs to toys haha. then uh. you'll be surprised that there's same stuff in the shop selling at different rates just because the other one's packaging can only be bought in airport; thus can be more expensive by like, 3 bucks. hoho, rocks no?i'm going back defu 2mr! CHEAPER CHOCS, YAYNESS! if they sell them to us at the price on the first day. GEN ANG YOU MADE A VERY GOOD DEAL ON THE DARK CHOC HERSHEYS KISSES(!!!) OK TODAY AT THE AIRPORT IT WAS GOING AT TEN, WHOLESOME BUCKS. muacks to chocs, my love! hoho. i survived today on the sight of so much chocs i never realised how tired i am, lol. er until now, where all the chocs are out of sight. hoho. i sound like some chocolate maniac or something i feed on the vision of vast amounts of chocolates : Di am suffering from lack of choc syndrome now; i'm totally worn out and i realised that i have a headache and feetache, hais. i'm so tired and sapped of energy i can hardly play the keys of the piano which is ): cause then i'll get killed this sat cause er my playing skills went down down down down down and it's in a bad state. anyway.2mr i'll be back in the warehouse wrapping up hampers and stuff! hoho so cool i can learn how to wrap presents haha and i'll be surrounded by chocs stacked up to the extremely high ceiling of the warehouse, utmost yayness! x) uhs yes. haha i'll stop here and er. continue about chocs 2mr (:gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 9:21 PM
hoho! jobshadowing lasted for only two and a half hours today, lol. it's quite interesting, knowing all about chocs and hoho eating chocs and buying chocs : Deugenia got so totally hyped hoho.anyway after we got dismissed at 1, me qing and siew ying went out! we debated where to go hoho in the end we went to plaza singapura why we chose that place i have no idea lol anyway saw jas log and roo there working for starhub, lol. then we went for lunch (mushroom swiss! yayness (: ) and walked around spotlight. SO COOL! : D heh. bought some woodpieces, me and qing. suggestions for fundraising! (:then we went to bishan (: hoho saw wy x) then qing sy and a very hyped gnia went in search of a present for qingy hoho her birthday's on wednesday! we bought her this stuffed pig : D and er. er. er. it's with me now cause im gona draw qingy on the heart thingy hoho. anyway then we went to food junction to do our.. reflection thingy then we went home (: at least, me and qing went home haha.2mr! we're going to TERMINAL TWO all thanks to siewying lol but actually quite cool lah you see if im not wrong its at the place after the place where the guy checks your passport hoho. so we can go shopping at all the duty free shops after our shift or something! which is like, yayness! (: did i tell you that qing is using all those really : D vocab that i use like 'yayness'! : Dmuacks i love chocs and myself!eugenia is feeling really, really hyper today (: and a bit ego (:'suffering from view-of-vast-amount-of-chocs syndrome' : Dgnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 6:45 PM
went to wy's house today! hoho. it was really really fun hoho i love his kitchen : D hoho and his room too lol me alvis and wy were playing monopoly it was so fun -grins- we er chuan4 tong1 against alvis lah he's a bit ke lian also actually but hey! i guess nxt time we shall attempt to play decently lah ok x) anyway he has a grand piano in his house lah it's like at the door ): -mutters- i want one too, please? (: but i dont want a yamaha one (:hmph anyway hoho sad lah only stayed for 3 hours liddat cause mom came ): went to grandma's! grandpa's birthday hoho so fun i love gatherings (: gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 6:59 PM
this song's really.. interesting. hoho and the way the brown derbies sing it it's really.. fascinating. -grins- it makes it a really.. cool yeah heh. esp the way they make the starting.. it somehow draws you into the song and stuff.. anyway, it's really.. interesting, this song. alvis thinks that it's morbid hoho cause they sing it as though it's nothing like, feelingless. no anger, no pity for whoever it is. and their chords are like, yay -- so totally oh my gosh heh. everything just fits together nicely. and seriously, if you don't look at the lyrics, you'll never guess what they're singing. i'm serious lol. Karma Police - RadioheadKarma police, arrest this manHe talks in mathsHe buzzes like a fridgeHe's like a detuned radioKarma police, arrest this girlHer Hitler hairdo isMaking me feel illAnd we have crashed her partyThis is what you getThis is what you getThis is what you get when you mess with usKarma PoliceI've given all I canIt's not enoughI've given all I canBut we're still on the payrollThis is what you getThis is what you getThis is what you get when you mess with usAnd for a minute thereI lost myself, I lost myselfAnd for a minute thereI lost myself, I lost my selfFor a minute thereI lost myself, I lost myselfFor a minute thereI lost myself, I lost myselfPhew, for a minute thereI lost myself, I lost myselfit's songs like these that make you think about stuff. listening to songs somehow can numb my senses i'll get totally immersed into the song all my other senses are just set on autopilot or something if there's something burning in the kitchen when i'm immersed in such moods i don't think i'll realise anything. it's just the thing about songs; it really can affect me a lot lah. i'll just wallow in the music and be in another world; a world of my own.and for a minute there, i lost myself ;gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 2:22 PM
boing!there's this really really nice song haha it's called ye qu (night song) by jay chou i like the melody a lot it makes you think about things and.. it's a kinda neutral song. and it sounds great. haha. esp the chorus mms. heh. thanks ann! (:even though i know now every thing's in a mess and next week without us i really don't know what will happen i just hope that you people will wake up from this dream and realise how deep we have sunk it's really totally deep shit we're in now you don't want to know but not knowing is ignorance and being ignorant won't change things. you all must strive hard, and show her that we can do it, together, and it's not about anyone, but it's about YOU. it's not about waiting for others, it's not about changing others. it's about changing yourself. only after changing yourself , then you can change others. not the other way round. i know we're really screwed now, but get a grip people! she gave up on us, but we haven't given up on you all. i really don't want to critise you all, so i guess don't make us lose hope too. i don't think you people don't have the capability, nor the will to do what's right. this is not about your incapability, but this is about your attitude, and how you take things. how you treat problems that come your way. how you face all the problems. do you ignore the problem, or do you try to solve the problem? will you fight on, or will you just let everything be and hope that everything will be gone the next week? let me tell you: it doesn't work like that. sometimes i just wonder, what does choir mean to you all? a place for you to go after school? somewhere where you can go with your friends for leisure? is coming to choir nothing at all, if we get scolded, isit just a bad choir session? is choir a place where you can almost definitely get an A1 for your cca record? do you care, if one day we started singing one part songs? would you even bother to find out why, if one day we start singing darn simple songs? would you even care, if the choir just sings fun songs for fun peace laughter and joy? sometimes i just wonder. but i really hope that what i'm doing in front of you all is right, and i am not leading all of you towards a wrong path. it isn't easy to be standing in front, and to make decisions. that's why i didn't volunteer for this position during the interview. but now that i am holding this position, i have no choice but to make all these decisions, even though sometimes i don't know is it the right thing to do or not. but no matter what i'll give my best. even though i may not know what to do, i learn along the way. failure isn't everything. if now you say that we're at our "down" period, then at least you all should try to fight and persevere on to improve, not waiting for someone to pull you out from the abyss. it's just not how things work. sectionals are boring. but they're only boring if you think it that way. and if combines are fun, sectionals are the 'stepping stone' to a good combine, right? if you dont have sectionals and go straight to combines i think you'll probably die of boredom cause the person in front will be trying to teach each section how it goes, and this wastes time. since you're already spending time in choir, why don't you just put in effort and make good use of your time? it's just.. disheartening to make things right, then they go back to square one just 15 mins later. i don't believe that you people lack the capability to sing, but.. you all are just not showing your ability. i can understand why ms lim got so angry for the past few weeks. i was hoping real hard that we can prove her wrong y'know, and show her that "NO WE ARE CAPABLE OF DOING THIS SONG" but you all just.. couldn't. and i'm really sorry to say lah sops ones with sort of attitude it's really shit and i tell you no way with this attitude will you people make it to czech next year i tell you man i'll rather not go to czech than go there and embarrass ourselves by screwing up or singing songs that the primary choir sings or something. i'm just really let down lah to think that i'm the sc yet my section's the worse out of the four sometimes i really don't know how to face ms lim you know everytime you people screw up.. i just don't know how to face her. i don't believe that my sectionals are that bad, seriously. i give you all face, i try to lighten the mood, but... sometimes i just don't know if what i'm doing is right.cherie and janice i know that it's hard for both of you qing and jiaming both of you too we must jiayoh and never give up hope on the choir cause if we give up on the choir, then there's no one there anymore. i really don't know what to say if our seniors come back and see us in this state i think i'll die.gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 8:27 PM
haha! i'm like not going for piano 2mr and i'm gona see some 6b 2002 people! hoho. 6b 2002 rocks a lot!best of all, me and ann we're so totally gona.. have so much fun together! : D what yayness!busy week ahead manssss!gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 9:42 PM
it's over! (:it guess.. it was ok lah. but not the sort of paper which i walked out the exam centre happy like crazy. but i guess i could have been better, could have been a lot worse too.at least, something's over (:and there's a million other things not.but hey! one at a time(:gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 9:33 AM