finally end of a week. my arms are hurting like crazy, and i am kinda sleepy.i dont know what to think; duno just feel kinda mixed up.listening to westlife, makes me smile (: and i think the choir sang well tonight. and i am happy + relieved about it. music just makes me smile and is the joy in my life (:but yet deep inside.. i am like relishing a very short moment; soon this feeling will be gone and i'll be angry pissed, whatever. deep down, i know i havent done anything today and yesterday. someone's daoing me. whatever. never mind its like partly my fault anyway.if there's something i can wish for...i'll wish that i can do whatever i love and have passion for without any distractions like exams or any obstacles. and that.. i can really love life to the fullest everyday.as i walk this land of broken dreams i have visions of many thingsbut happiness is just an illusionfilled of sadness and confusionwhat becomes of the broken heartedwho had loved has just departedi know i got to findsome kind of peace of mindmaybe..gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 9:49 PM
hello, blog. oh well havent been like blogging for the past 11 days (can you believe it) not that i didnt attempt to i tried once but just didnt know what to say, so yah..the end of the holidays is nearing, i can sense it. what have i done? finished geog notes and ss notes. finished harry potter book 6 (like yay) and uhh. thats all i think.20 days to end of years, what am i thinking.why is this happening i dont know what's going on in my head everything's in a whirl, i dont know what i am doing, i dont know what i'm thinking i dont know what i really want. i'm like going through life in a daze, nothing's going right, nothing's going as planned, nothing's on the right track. nothing. it was never like that. i dont know. i just dont see the purpose. i dont see the need. i dont know. what know i know is that i need time to straighten things out. at the right time, the right place, with the right mindset. but when is that. seriously, i dont know. time doesnt wait, this i know. what makes you think that i dont want to make everything go right? everything's screwing up for me. i just cant seem to face it. i just cant get a grip on anything. that CLICK in my mind: you better come quick. right now, im just depressed. so sue me.>what happens, if aspirations are too faraway; and too dreamlike? sigh.staying online seems terribly wrong, not that i feel like studying. and i HATE irritating siblings, grr.gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 7:15 PM