well.. as i look back upon this year.. i've been and went through a lot.. getting into a new class, new environment.. syf.. preparing for harbin.. and going there.. jubilate II.. piano grd8 exam.. holding new positions in the choir.. how to cope with everything.. then eoys.. job attachment.. obs.. and all the other things that happened.. i've grown physical, mentally stronger throughout all this.. i've learnt on how to handle more situations, haha some sticky ones that i never knew how to handle, gone through more than i can imagine, learn to take more things in my stride, to cope with everything that i was going through with a smile no matter what was going on inside, or how im feeling.. yeah it wasnt easy, nothing's that easy anyway, so as i look back, i'm rather glad how things turned out.. it wasnt perfect, but.. i guess i'm happy on how this year had been.. there were successes like getting gold for syf.. distinction for grade 8.. being able to survive through obs.. and even though there were failures too but i guess that's where i learn and grow.. and becoming a better person and getting closer to god.. that's what's supposed to come out from all this, isn't it?
i don't want this year to end, cause.. i just don't want to face the new year, but no matter how reluctant i am, it'll still come.. so i guess i'll just take everything in my stride.. then i'll study hard.. to get into nj.. and maybe even rj.. haha.. or maybe even somewhere else.. maybe even nafa, hahaha. it seriously just depends on where i want myself to be.. what i want to be in the future.. whether i want to be down to earth or to be chasing my dreams.. after all.. what we're going through and working towards.. isnt it about what we want to be in the future, right? well, somewhat lah. yeah..
to you know who you are.. or whoever you are.. hahahaha.. i know that next year wont be like this year.. which has been quite/very slack yet not quite.. haha.. i'll have less time.. but more commitments.. i know, haha.. just know what we're doing and we'll be fine right? ><
all my friends.. thanks for being there for me.. no matter what you do, big or small.. i really appreciate it.. (: all that we've been through together.. i won't forget..
so much i want to say to everyone.. but we're on the WWW haha i dont want to make everything that open.. so.. haha all of you are just special in your own way (;
a new year approaches.. with more things to be done, new challenges ahead.. i'll just face everything with an open mind.. and do my best in all that i do.. i don't know what the future holds exactly, but i certainly know that next year's going to be real real busy, with choir, theory exam, piano exam and other stuff.. i'm in for it.. haha but i'll do my best.. so i wont let anyone down.. neither myself.. yeah..
cheers to a (hopefully) brighter 2006 for everyone!
love, gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 12:14 PM
merry christmas everyone! even though i am 3 days late.. haha.. it's been a wonderful christmas.. somehow.. and i wna thank all those who sent me cards.. nat and ann.. (: thank you! it was really nice of you two.. (:i'm.. suddenly feeling happy.. and really peaceful.. even though my emotions had been a really terrorising ride yesterday and today.. even though i havent exactly thought things through.. i'm just real glad i've snapped out of it.. at least, for now.. yeah.. even though all that im in.. right now at this very moment, i'm feeling as though i'm at the top of the world.. not the very hyper sort of top of the world.. it's like, looking down from the clouds and looking at everything at the bottom.. away from reality... and where dreams really come true, everything becomes possible.. and i feel as though i'm the luckiest girl on earth..A Whole New WorldI can show you the worldShining, shimmering, splendidTell me, princess, now when didYou last let your heart decide?I can open your eyesTake you wonder by wonderOver, sideways and underOn a magic carpet rideA whole new worldA new fantastic point of viewNo one to tell us noOr where to goOr say we're only dreamingA whole new worldA dazzling place I never knewBut when I'm way up hereIt's crystal clearThat now I'm in a whole new world with youNow I'm in a whole new world with youUnbelievable sightsIndescribable feelingSoaring, tumbling, freewheelingThrough an endless diamond skyA whole new worldDon't you dare close your eyesA hundred thousand things to seeHold your breath - it gets betterI'm like a shooting starI've come so farI can't go back to where I used to beA whole new worldEvery turn a surpriseWith new horizons to pursueEvery moment red-letterI'll chase them anywhereThere's time to spareLet me share this whole new world with youA whole new worldThat's where we'll beA thrilling chaseA wondrous placeFor you and me hey darling wna thank you for all that you've done last night.. for calling and msging me.. am alright now.. thanks k (: i really miss you a lot.. haha you should know who you are.. love you k! -hugs- haha cant wait to see you again (:gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 5:49 PM
sigh feeling a bit weird. and like i havent done a lot of things, and there's a lot of stuff to do, and a lot of other things on my mind lah. ): oh well christmas' in two days. that's something to be happy about (:holidays are like nearly gone ): sigh. homework !gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 7:22 PM
(: skippy crunchy peanut butter! :D:D:D-grins- heh. again, another week just flew past like nobody's bussiness which is ): two more weeks only till school reopen??? and i have so much hw left undone, havent studied, a lot of unpracticed piano stuff, and what nots that i want to do... oh well. hah. i shall talk about this week thenn. 12thdecme and my mom and my sis went to watch the national piano and violin competition 2005 , senior category, semifinals. well, haha i was really awed by quite a few players.. haha well, the whole competition is somewhat dominated by rj players. heh. well, i must say i'm impressed by the whole competition. the way they played.. yeah it's fantastic (: though the results were quite surprising.. ok, VERY surprising, i guess this sort of thing very subjective lah. yep yep.13thdecchoir! was great! muacks. sop ones had the funnest sectionals we've ever had in ages (if we've ever had any before), and sop ones managed to pull through the song, woohoo! and we finished a song and combined in less than one and a half hour.. which is an improvement! yep yep see sop ones? we can DO IT! yay!then we hung up the banner (: at the most, prominent spot, like yay! the early bird catches the worm, hey!14thdecme and janice went to buy souvenir material.. dont want to elaborate.. very tiring haha. but we finished buying at 4 plus. we went to ms lim's shop! hahashall continue another day if i must. phone! :Doh! happy birthday ber!gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 9:45 PM
i'm back from obs! dall in one piece, haha. it was really fun! SHACKLETON!(:day onewe sat on the bum boat there, then got sorted out into our watches. SHACKLETON! we are: sam and hui yin from chij toa payoh, me, yizhen, yiwei, amanda, florence, jessica, jesslyn, hui qing, tong tong, kelda, hwee peng and jenny! haha then we met our extremely lovely and sweet instructor, CANDY! (: we played icebreakers then did admin stuff.. packed food and did stockchecking.. in the afternoon we did trust fall then climbing and belaying.. and that's about it. then we set our tents and did cooking outdoors haha it was quite fun(: used a jack knife to open cans and coat toothpaste on our mass tins.. learnt a lot of basic things lah. haha we played zhong ji mi ma to finish the baked beans haha so fun XD then we packed our haversacks which were really heavy.. at night we slept in the tents.. the ground's really hard! but i slept quite well, didnt wake up till the next day..day twowe ate sardines and tuna bread for breakfast, yummy! haha. then we went kayaking. we screamed a lot, haha esp when we first went into the sea -grins- capsizing is so fun! heh. then we kayaked to campsite one, where 'the palace' is. haha the toilet there is really really nice! not that it had hot water, but it's a lot cleaner, and there are lights all the time (: haha and we get served food there! dont need to cook by ourselves (no, we do not cook ourselves, get it? XD ) then in the afternoon we did rock wall climbing. didnt manage to finish climbing though.. but at least i tried lah.. even though at the start i never imagine climbing the thing.. at least i attempted, so yeah im not that disappointed.. then that night we had to camp at this place where we were so paranoid cause got a lot of sandflies, or so we thought.. then had to pitch tents with rocks.. we complained a lot lah. then we were discussing of ways on how to escape/get sent back to singapore, haha. amanda wanted to sleep in the toilet; it was so nice and warm haha. after supper (red bean soup, omgosh so nice : D), we met candy at the multi purpose hall, where we played some game. everyone has an animal action, then we have to like go around lah. got forfiet, haha. jenny got seven, i got one, florence got one, and i cant really remember who else, haha. then we reflected upon the day.. then went to sleep. in the end the campsite wasnt that bad, even though i did get bitten by sandflies. woke up at 230, was awake till 330, then drifted off to sleep againday threeexpedition day! didnt feel like it at first.. carry the haversack jiu sian liao.. but of course, we still went on with the expedition lah haha. so stupid my long pants was dropping?? it was loose cause i didnt know how to tie the silly string.. ): anyway, we went to find checkpoints, and climbed pokka hill (if that's how you spell it, haha). we saw pitcher plants there lah! so CUTE : D haha anyway our haversacks are really heavy lah. and the TENTS are HORRENDOUSLY HEAVY ): esp the groudsheet, dammit. we took turns carrying it. but when we finally got back it was really great! i mean, to campsite two, we dropped stuff! (which was actually NOT in the to-do-list, but candy was SO SWEET : D ) then our haversacks got like five times lighter -grins- which is absolute love! haha. then we went to our campsite. it was really lovely! great view, many rocks.. so we had a wide range of rocks to pitch our tents with. then we cooked dinner (: instant noodles and mushroom campbell soup! and candy shared with us her javanese chicken curry and her tom yam soup.. which was not bad : D yes, she is really sweet (: powder bathed.. not bad i guess. then we went for nightwalk.. saw glow in the dark mushrooms! so cool, omg. went to see fireflies.. but didnt see any in the end.. probably cause it was really windy.. then candy dispatched us two by two to walk back in the moonlit night.. quite fun haha me and yizhen talked a lot the pair behind us jessica and florence walked so fast they actually caught up with us in the end, haha. then we gathered and candy told us ghost stories about the island which she thinks are not real.. i dont think they're real either lah. then andy told us some story omg he's really a good ghost story teller omg when he did the WHAT at the end i was so shocked i cried.. haha not out loud but just teared lah. omg but i wasnt expecting it lah. i hardly listen to ghost stories, what can you expect? haha anyway the storyline quite fake lah. but that night we heard a group of girls singing lah.. quite eerie.. i mean, it's like hearing voices, yet its not too loud, yet not soft until you cannot hear.. i thought i was hallucinating so i didnt think about it.. but in the end nxt morning apparantly the others heard it too.. we slept at 11.. i awoke at 130, cause the wind was really strong, there was thunder, and the tent roof seemed to sag a lot. so me and yi zhen went out to shift the rocks. it rained. could hear a lot of movement and talking outside.. i think quite a lot of tents flooded. ours was quite ok, but there was this cloth thing in our tent which was dripping above my head ): but i shifted myself lower then fell asleep after 330. day fourwoke up at 6, to find my hair horribly wet. haha not bad actually, jesslyn got 3/4 wet then jessica got half wet. me and yizhen not so bad heh. then i was so angry lah, my thing came. anyway. yeah had breakfast and went back to campsite two. uh, we went to do DOUBLE DANGLE DUO. on the way there, i saw this green snake lah omg i was screaming and squealing like crazy then we rushed up the steps to where the thing was. dagamar was doing flying fox lah.. so fun. but ours was more challenging lah. imagine a gigantic rope ladder. with logs as rungs. each log nearly 1.3m apart. and it is off the ground, i mean, it is NOT attached to the ground. when i first looked at it, i was really kinda shocked, thinking how on earth am i supposed to climb it. me and yizhen climbed together. even though it was really hard, sam was belaying me; she's so light and i am not, what if she fly up if i fall, then i was squealing a lot a lot (there was an echo from the forest), the whole thing was so unstable it was swinging, but yeah we finally managed haha. i was so relieved and happy when we reached the top! wanted candy to take a photo of us at the top but i dont think she heard.. haha. amanda and yiwei were very funny lah haha omg amanda kept pulling the belay string XD then i belayed kelda who went up with jenny haha SO DARN FUNNY ok there were four people trying to help jenny up to the second log yizhen was pulling the belay as tight as she could, then amanda was pushing her, kelda was pulling her, then yiwei and someone else was pulling the belay string down like crazy. finally when jenny got to the second log, kelda went to the third then OMG jenny fell to the ground. which was so omgosh. then we helped her up again; she stepped on amanda's back then everyone was pulling the belay string and pushing her up.. it was really funny lah. but finally when she and kelda reached the top we were really really happy and excited : D -grins- then lunch we had buns, and biscuits. then we built a raft with 8 poles and 4 barrels within the time limit of one hour, called le vessel AND IT STAYED AFLOAT! hahaha it didnt sink : D which was like so YAY unlike dagamar's their's was half sinking.. but at first we saw that their barrels were very neatly tied.. not like ours.. so it was quite surprising lah. but we had a lot of fun (; then we did jetty jump! so FUN i LOVE IT : D we all jumped twice (: after all of us got up, when we were leaving, we saw a jelly fish which was really big so cool lah! at first i thought it was a plastic bag but it wasnt. x) heh. we had a great dinner, chicken curry and rice and instant noodles.. anchovies and sardines.. campbell soup.. yeah cause we were trying to finish all the food we had, haha. then we had hot milo which was really nice : D and we were late for stock check by an hour, but in the end candy joined us to drink milo and we drank and talked till ten : D heh. then lights out at 11. amanda's tent was talking really loudly haha was listening to their conversation for a really long time -grins- till 11 or 12 plus haha then me and yi zhen talked a bit about band and choir.. then slowly fell asleep. day fivedidnt wake up till 5, rocks haha. me and yizhen were the first to wake up in our watch! we went to the toilet to change, and i got into shorts. washed up, and by the time we were done it was 540 already. we started to clean stuff and had breakfast at 830 liddat. then yeah that's about it cleared stuff and brought food home.. washed tents fly sheets ground sheets.. yep. then it was going to rain everyone had to go into the shelter.. in the end it was just a light drizzle. mms then we went to buy shirt! omgosh i love my black and yellow shirt and can you believe it, i'm wearing size XS cause that's the only size there was and haha rocks, i can fit into it. i bought the keychain too (: yup yup rocks. then we had debriefing, played another game HAHA I DIDNT GET FORFIETED (: -grins- amanda looks SO CUTE HAHA with the red spots as cheeks -grins- heh. then we reflected over the camp and yeah then got our photos which rocks (: and our certs. then there was mass debriefing then we went home.. so sad lah i nearly cried a lot and teared when i got my cert.. i mean as a watch we've gone through so much together.. and we've all learnt and grown together for the past five days.. and we're so attached to darling CANDY.. really couldnt bear to leave.. but we're gona meet up and watch memoirs of a geisha.. SHACKLETON! BESTEST BEST WATCH AND OUR SWEETEST DARLINGEST INSTRUCTOR CANDY!reflectionsit has been a really great week.. learnt a lot, done a lot of new things.. i realised that i shouldnt shortchange myself.. to believe in my own abilities.. to have confidence in myself and the people around me.. it's really impt to perserve.. and to strive on.. and we need to try cause we'll never know what we can do until we try.. and if we open up and keep an open mind.. nothing will come that bad.. like, even though i was really bei guan about obs.. couldnt imagine surviving.. but i kept an open mind.. so i can say that i dont really have a down point throughout these five days.. i was really happy and got through this camp really really well.. learnt that we need to trust god.. and pray to him.. and miracles DO happen.. like what happened to candy.. how she got healed after her accident.. and thank god for guiding us through the camp.. we didnt get a very tough program.. and we got a fantastic instructor who guided us and taught us new things and fundamentals in life.. we could click as a watch even though we werent all from the same school.. we were blessed with great weather.. and everything turned out the best that it could be..shackleton is LOVE!gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 8:19 PM
you know, parents can be very idiotic at times. like this morning, i passed my mom the obs list, and she like kept pestering me to pass the list to my dad. after i finally did, i went out, which was at 11 and only came back like, two hours ago. now, she asks me to see what i need in the list that we dont have, saying that passing them the list doesn't signify anything. and now what, she say that the list she return to me already, if lost is my problem. you pester me to pass it to you, and you dont even look at it. what is this man. one whole day you were at home and you didnt see whether you need to go out and buy anything today, but no, you all stayed at home. and tomorrow i'm supposed to spend my entire afternoon being some host or something. as if you'll go and buy things lah. ok, maybe you will but i seriously think otherwise. and they sometimes have the sensitivity of a teaspoon, i must say. i'm just not in a very joking mood tonight lah, can? no one can tell, as usual. i just want some peace and quiet, that's all. that's a lot meh. anyway i watched harry potter with shiane today! finally haha. the graphics are not bad, but they really really cut a lot of parts. ><
sigh. im just feeling sian tonight lah. maybe cause i'm sleepy, a tad worried about obs, or maybe cause we ate chips during the movie then we didnt exactly eat lunch and my stomach's feeling sick, haha. i'm not very sure lah but sigh i'm just feeling down... and theory wasnt the best thing today hai i wasn't in the mood lah ): no mood to joke.
and let's just say that if i have no mood to joke during theory class, that's bad.
gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 9:04 PM