the end of another week, i'm having rather mixed feelings;finally it's the weekend and the end of a hell of a week, but then, it's one week closer to everything's that's coming up; trip, concerts, prelims.. and whatever's in line for me. i guess time IS really really tight this year; time's flying by like nobody's business. from what mrs goh said today, it IS evident that another week has passed. it's so contradicting; on monday i was absolutely horrified to find the week just starting and now i'm shocked cause the week's gone. i'm desperate for time, yet i still have not touched sec 3 stuff, struggling to keep up sec 4 work, but this is supposedly not the busiest term yet. studying during recess for leisure is practically redundant; one whole recess i can write from ten words to a A1 graded assignment which is due by end of recess. so it really depends on the urgency of what i'm doing. i dont know i'm a bit numb these days like very mechanical; esp maths i need to like at the formula then can do instead of understanding why. like differentiation of trigo; i completely lost 80% of what i learnt and to think last week i was still doing trigo thing in class, if im not mistakened. i dont know la. things just dont click as well as when i was in primary school when everything was logical and i need not much effort to understand. maybe it's the enthusiasm, or the different mindset, i dont know. i wna thank manda, qing and siewying for always being there for me, always (:cherie and janice, for saving me from situations when i dont know what to tell our dearest conductor lizzie for giving me advice of all sortsthat special someone for everything you've doneand the many others that i cannot do withoutthankyou
just an update la. i think sop ones getting better, slowly but yea keep it up k! and i've been kicked to sop 2 by ms lim ): ok la i guess a new experience of not being the melody line? only thing is i need to relearn practically everything; and i dont really have time to learn in choir, and it wasn't easy picking up sop 1 part just listening even though they ARE mostly the melody line. oh well, from all these challenges we grow to become a better person, so i guess i'll take this as a learning experience (:gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 6:58 PM
Who I Am hates Who I've Been - Relient KI watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the pacific
And you might think I'm losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics
Cause I don't want you to know where I am
Cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been
And this is no place to try and live my life
Stop right there
That's exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well, I never should have crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back
I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been
I talked to absolutely no one
Coudn't keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside had finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'd soon blow up
And I heard the reverberating footsteps
Syncing up to the beating of my heart
And I was positive that unless I got myself together
I would watch me fall apart
And I can't let that happen again
Cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been
And this is no place to live my life
Stop right there
That's exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well, I never should have crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back
Stop right there
That's exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well, I never should have crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back
I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me
Who I am hates who I've been
Cause who I've been only ever made me
I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've beeni think this song's really catchy! heh.sigh. holidays are over, i have NOT DONE ANYTHING esp hw, let alone study HAI i got so much hw left i'm like, doomed. ><>< ) heh. i guess in whatever situation i'm in, there's always something that i can look towards, or something that can make me get out of what i'm feeling. at least i have someone to er, rant at haha. -hugs- to that special someone: thanks for this wonderful week haha i'm super sorry for wasting your time when you should have been studying for your CTs ): yea yesterday was really really a great day heh i really enjoyed it and im glad you did too (: -hugs- stay positive and everything k! gnia
# posted by Eugenia @ 6:25 PM
heh. no more tests this week, hooray! no homework today either! er. but got theory this sat. terrible.ok gtg byeIJ Spirit burning brightFill this world with love and lightLight that shines for all to seeLove that sets our spirits freeIJ friendships through the yearsBorn of simple joys and tearsSomething tells us deep insideIJ friends are friends for lifeHold on to our dream of peace, don't stop believingOur hearts and hands ever seeking, ever servingHold on to the sound of our friends all joyously singingOur voices raised to the Lord our God aboveHold on to our Dream
# posted by Eugenia @ 9:08 PM